If I took the risk to speak with my friend and the whole thing blew up in my face, I'd probably feel ashamed and exposed whenever I thought about it for a very, very long time.
blow up in one's face
التركية النطق
blō ʌp în wʌnz feys
النطق
/ˈblō ˈəp ən ˈwənz ˈfās/ /ˈbloʊ ˈʌp ɪn ˈwʌnz ˈfeɪs/